East to West

Here I am Lord and I’m drowning, in Your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me, I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind
Keeps me awake tonight
I know you’ve cast my sin as far as the East is from the West
And I stand before You now as though I’ve never sinned
But today I feel like I’m just one mistake away
From You leaving me this way


Jesus can you show me just how far the east is from the west
‘Cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been
Rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
‘Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins

Endless reminding of my sin
And time and time again
Your truth is drowned out by the storm I’m in
Today I feel like I’m just one mistake away
from You leaving me this way

I know You’ve washed me white
Turn my darkness into life
I need Your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can’t live by what I feel
About the truth Your word reveals
I’m not holding on to You
But You’re holding on to me
You’re holding on to me

Not you average girl

I'm a wildflower soaking up the sun. I'm a free bird soaring, a ray of shining light upon your face; a sunny day dreaming in radiant beams.

I'm not a simple-average girl. Not a come-n-get it, gotta run, skip the romance, fight the system, not your run of the mill sweet heart, No.

I'm an easy-breathing, dancing dreaming, spinning in the moonlight, soaking up the sun, basking in the crisp quite air starry headed girl. Yes, my soul is a pixie set free to roam, a damsel in a winding tunnel, not a thing in my way.

Just mesmerized by the beauty the world brings to my door step, not satisfied with skimming the surface of this picture. NO you better believe I'm gonna dive right in, dive into the mystery, the beauty that surrounds.

Beauty, yes its soaring around, everyone seems to think they have the answer to the riddle we call beautiful. I'm gonna catch it, the REAL thing, and no it was never plastic to begin with. I'm gonna catch it in the end, you better bet. I'm more than your average girl.

Cleaning out the closet

Nothing can separate us from the Love that is in Christ. Nothing, and we have probably read that over and over again and again. We have been taught that his grace never ceases, and it is so true. But how much do we actually believe it? I mean do we live our lives knowing that he will never stop loving us? Or do we get so deep in our messy traps of sin and shame, so intertwined in the junk, that we just give up, run and hide from God. Do we run the other way, hiding our faces? Maybe because we think that we are too dirty for him to touch us, to make us clean again. Or could it be we think that he will be so angry at us that he will completely turn us away? And why do we even worry about these scenarios? Because he tells us flat out, in Hebrews 13:5 "I will never leave or forsake you." What about Psalms 103:11-13 11

"For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him";

We have to create a place for him, if we expect him to live inside our hearts. We think that we should be able to hold onto all the "junk", and have him too. But how can we have him living in our hearts, if it is already filled with all these other things. Things we worry about, our fears, school, our jobs, relationships, struggles. Maybe they are things we refuse to let go of, maybe they are things that wont let go of us, or maybe we don't even realize its getting in the way of our relationship with God. We have so much clutter, NOISE, that just fills our lives and do we even stop to think of him enough? DO we give him the time that he deserves, are we putting him first? It says, in Mathew 6, that if we would just trust him enough, to put him first, all these other things will be "added unto you" they will be taken care of, he will put them into perspective for us. If we put him first in our lives, make a space in our hearts, and it cant just be a little spot, he has to be the main focus! Then he will take care of us, iron out all our wrinkles, untie all of our stubborn knots. Our lives can be made whole in him. He has the power to do great things in us, to work through us like we cant even imagine!

We don't have to hide from him, he sees our sin, he sees everything we hide in the dark. He knows it, why do we even try to hide? He sees us anyway. Psalm 139 even says that he knows our thoughts before they even come out of our mouths. He knows every tiny piece of us, the good, and the horrible. But the amazingly comforting thing is, although he sees all of this, he doesn't stop loving us for it. He doesn't stop lifting us up. He stands firm at our side because his love for us is so great, it reaches as FAR as the EAST is from the WEST!! WOW And it may be hard to grasp but it is so true.

He is our Father! He is our friend, our 'Raya' as it is translated in Hebrew. He is our companion and our Father forever, he will never leave us, w don't have to hide!! Whatever is holding you back from a burning on fire relationship with God, get it out!! Please get it out, or let God get it out for you! He wants our all, not a piece, he wants our total beings and he doesn't want to share us with anything else that shouldn't be there. Let him be the master of your life, the rock you stand on, he will make you mighty! He will do great things in you. God Bless!

Kayleigh